Symptom Streaks Sinister Significance

Hidden in plain sight, symptoms are often present whether we are in the mood for it or not. Symptoms do not care if you’ve had enough of them. Symptoms do not mind if there’s just a few present or if it’s a full onslaught with either a massive crowd of a bunch of different symptoms or the really stubborn ones screaming for attention.

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome has a variety of debilitating symptoms outlined on the FM-CFS Canada website (italics added by me), describing it as a

“pathological exhaustion not reversed by rest, no matter how much one has. This situation results in a substantial reduction of previous levels of activity. In order to be clinically diagnosed with CFS, an individual must meet both of the following criteria:

1. clinically evaluated, unexplained persistent or relapsing chronic fatigue that is of new or definite onset, is not the result of ongoing exertion, is not substantially alleviated by rest and results in substantial reduction of previous levels of occupational, educational, social or personal activities; and
2. four or more of the following key symptoms are concurrently present for 6 months or longer:

• substantial impairment in short-term memory or concentration (attention deficit, memory lapses, frequently using the wrong word, spatial disorientation);
• sore throat;
• extreme joint and muscle pain without swelling or redness;
• headaches of a new type, pattern or severity;
• unrefreshing sleep (hypersomnia or insomnia, nightmares);
• painful lymph nodes;
• post-exertional malaise lasting more than 24 hours.”

I am writing today about the impact of one of these symptoms and how I have learned to live a productive life with it. The cool thing about CFS is that the symptoms vary by day, week, month, year. This translates to having better days than others and needing to handle the rough days appropriately. Not only is everyone’s experience with CFS unique to themselves, it is also unique to that person’s life. In this post, I focus on the short-term memory/concentration symptom.

 

What do you do with 15 minutes?

I recently read a blog post from Lorne Rubis, The Last 15 Minutes of Anything, discussing how important it is not giving up and giving it your all. One of the key points, is “Learning how to finish is something we can learn and practice“. Mr. Rubis is consistently a motivator, a leading example of work ethic, attempting work/life balance and how to truly practice your values at work and in life. This particular blog entry caught my attention for a couple of reasons:

1. I have incorporated a 15 minute minimum rule into my daily life for working on my writing. I use a technique I learned from Around The Writer’s Block (http://www.amazon.ca/dp/B011MCYQ4A). Basically, you follow a simple promise to yourself: have 15 minutes a day at least of product time. Product time can include research, editing, organizing, etc. including of course, writing itself. Product time (paraphrased in my own words) is anything that moves your writing forward. This is why it includes other things besides strictly writing. Since I’ve adopted this mentality, it’s helped me stop the time wasters of beating myself up for not creating something new and freed my creative juices to create more writing than I’ve produced in years!
2. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/ME/FM all can have a drastic effect on what you can do in 15 minutes.

I  still remember the first time I had about 15 minutes of feeling symptom-free. I was approximately 19 years old and had literally been in bed for years. Attempting yet another thing to ease my symptoms, I was following a new regimen of high fiber cookies and an herbal tonic from a company called Lifestyles. At that time, it was the first time something made a difference.* Like a drug, that first high I experienced when I felt like I did before I got sick, was inspiring. Of course, it did not last, but I still actively seek that next high where I can feel like a “regular” person again, no fever, no aches, no nausea, just alive!

*In the long run, the products helped for a year or two and then I resumed a tolerable level of symptoms that remained the same for several years no matter what I tried. I use my own way of eating high protein, vegetables and low carbohydrates plus rest and moderate exercise to keep my symptoms in check.

That 15 minutes meant the world to me. What did I do? I actually just enjoyed the moment. I felt my body. I listened to my breath. I relished the moment.

Today, my world is vastly different. I work at a day job that needs at least 7.25 hours of my attention (usually more!) where I need to be engaged, intelligent and aware of my team, my goals, corporate objectives, etc., etc. I often find myself utilizing 15 minute increments to break the work down. I use this to help accomplish what I need to in the day/week/month but also to put things into smaller chunks. If i am experiencing a brain fog moment, I use a few techniques to overcome this:

• Stand up – take a breath.
• Walk for a few minutes.
• Clean up old e-mails (that do not need mental thought to process)
• Speak to a colleague.

15 minutes can mean finalizing a last section of a project, writing a blog entry when I am at home, or helping build a better relationship with a fellow team member. A lot can be accomplished in 15 minutes! Mr. Rubis’ blog refers to the last 15 minutes, but with CFS, that last 15 minutes can be at 10 am or 10 pm, depending on the day.

Take 15 minutes at a time – what can you do in 15 minutes to make your life better?

Please share your comments below!

 

Endometriosis and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Right now, I’m napping on a daily basis and struggling with newly diagnosed, Endometriosis. I finally have a real reason for the pelvic pain I’ve experienced for years. I thought it was just part of getting older; I’m very glad to have a gynecologist to finally explore this and discover the source of my pain.

I will be having surgery in early December; exact date will be determined later. I admit that with so much happening this year, I’m struggling with my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome symptoms. It’s mostly my energy that’s lacking right now. I still work every day; but need a nap every day when I get home/finish if I work from home and the weekends spent at home include 2 – 3 short naps each day (usually 15 – 30 minutes).

I’m working on improving these symptoms the way I know works for me:

• Cut out refined sugar. No desert!
• Rest when I need to. Sometimes that means sitting more than I prefer but in the long run I’ll get back to my earlier energy levels.
• Exercise lightly (jog/walk for 30 – 45 minutes 2 – 3 times a week).
• Take care of my brain; audio books to stimulate me, detailed coloring books to keep my brain focused, great conversations.

I believe that with proper medical and self-care, diligence and the support of my friends and family, I will get back to my “normal”. Endometriosis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, life’s challenges; not one of these are obstacles that will stop me from being who I need to be everyday.

What do you do to overcome obstacles that seem to hold you back? What motivates you to keep working on improving your own life?